dirty & dirty

i feel fragile
like i could break at the slightest sound
i think it may just be exhaustion

not showering in three days does weird things
mostly it increases the paranoia of things like lice and mosquitos
and the consequences of encountering such things
i forgot to pack a towel, hmmm

not sleeping or better yet, only taking a handful of naps
in the last 72-ish hours
also does strange things to a person
i also forgot to pack pj's
boo!

bind my wandering heart

i love that my heart is forever fettered to his. some days its annoying, days when i'm running and can't seem to escape it. but i don't want it any other way. i am his and its so good to know and trust (or at least attempt to) in that.

if i pretend november has not yet come, would you play along?
its such a strange feeling
i'm not sure of anything
and i keep thinking that maybe if i just swallow my pride something like magic will take place
fear of man, that has always been trouble for me
and then there lies the fear that there will be no magic moment and life will cease to be the fantasy i've made it out to be in my mind

fear, such a funny little feeling
today i wish i were fearless