it brings a strange relief to know that i'm not irreplaceable. letting things go & taking a firm purposeful hold of others. this feels good (though more difficult that i imagined).

he is good. he is faithful.

the shadow proves the sunshine

he makes me aware of that more than most.

i'd like to be back in front of this window, sipping some coffee, listening to the sound of small hands beating on handmade drums, breathing in the wonder of Canada.

daydreams

i've been day dreaming about all the adventures i'll have with my new partner in crime.
i'm quickly growing a pile of film that needs developing.
i've got about 15 rolls already.
and i'm anxious to see how they turn out.
my hopes aren't too high.
digital photography has ruined me.
now i just need a dark room.

crossing my fingers