Visited Snooze this morning with two of the lovelies.
i cannot believe i'd never eaten there. tasty :)
it was a nice morning after (the blizzard, i mean) though i do wish it had stuck around a bit longer.
oliver & i spent some time staring out the window while the snow fell yesterday. it was beautiful. couldn't see anything past commons and riverfront. for a day it felt like we lived in a small village. somedays i miss that. things get so busy here. it often leaves me feeling overwhelmed. i'd like more time to paint, cook, write, craft and, yes, even clean.
the girls and i talked about how nice it'd be to live as stay-at-home wives. i think there is something beautiful to it. i'd pull my own weight, honest. its a bit hard though when you've got to work a full time job. there's no time to just be. & honestly thats what i need if i'm ever going to get this dream of mine happening. i jokingly noted that i'd probably write better songs. i think there was some truth to it. my art is always better when i have no (time) constraints.

i'm waiting, mister

heh. not really.

seriously though. i'm not. i do enjoy life this way :)

i love

or at least i'd like to think i do.
it's quickly becoming more than i can bear.

i need a baking day. maybe saturday.
maybe not. i don't always like the maybe's.
i need more commitment in my life now.
its a strange feeling, being done with the fleeting tendencies of day to day living.
i will soon be settled again. not in the way some are accustomed to.
my feet will soon belong to that beautiful land that is presently far from them.
home will then be a place i've yet to see with my own eyes.

home, my heart is longing.

match-less is His love for me

that's what i'm learning.
still wrestling and unsure of when it will end. but even now that the mask has been removed to reveal the face of my beloved i find a deep strength and comfort in knowing that my enemy was never a true one. He is for me.

He is faithful, unchanging, unmoved.
and i love that about Him.

the stars were beautiful...

and the company all the more.

it was/is...
strange being in a place that was home for so long but no longer belonging (until tuesday).
satisfying to leave after knowing that in someways it will always be home.
relieving to know that the search for home is over. for now at least.
good to be okay and more than okay.


side note: i am getting more excited and terrified for my indian adventure. yes, that is the first i've written about it here. and no one reads this so i guess its not really a shock.