28 jan 10

thought provoking conversation, countless cups of tea and the prospect of creating something delicious for the girls. this day couldn't be more lovely.

perfect (satur)day

breakfast at Lucille's - lunch at Europa - new books - browsing through buttons and fabric - wonderful friends

fat fat fatty fat fat

since i've been back at the office, patients will tell me i look "good" or "different" and follow the statement with the always amusing, "have you lost weight?"
ha! i'm such a fatty. some days, i answer with "yeah, a little. but i'm not sure why cause i ate like a little pig (thanks to Easter) while i was away" other days i just smile and say that i'm not sure, maybe its just my hair is longer, or something like that.
if Dr J is around she answers for me, "she's spiritually renewed! doesn't she look great?"

yeah, that's my boss.
man, i love working for her!

its going to be painful. it already has been. just remember, he is making all things new. 

the board

some days i think about the people in my life and see how blessed i am. some days i fail to see it. but on days like today, days when my heart is so heavy and broken, they serve as my mental inspiration board. i won't tell you who these people are because you should have your own people who inspire you. if you don't already see that in your circle, open your eyes and see the heart behind the people you call friends and family. look at the things they fully throw themselves into, find their passion and their tenacity in the small things and let that move you. i read an email today from a man i used to admire but had until today forgotten. he lives in Haiti. i had no idea. but if you knew this man and what his life was before Haiti and before the recent events i'm fairly sure you'd be impressed. you'd be impressed that he didn't then and still today refuses to take the easy way out. for me its not so much impressive as it is just a reminder that God is restoring humanity to himself in small ways at the core of disaster and tragedy. no, i don't believe He wanted this but i have hope that He has not left us and that He is faithful and good.

there was a chorus we used to sing at mother house every morning. its been on repeat in my mind the last few days...

we have our hope in Jesus
that all things will be well
in the Lord

if we cannot trust Him, who will give us hope ?

his new word is why. i'm glad he doesn't lose a word every time he learns a new one. that would be ridiculous. 

on an empty stomach

a cup of tea and a little soyjoy makes me feel human. spending too much time with cardboard and plastic does the opposite.

found a bent fork in the silverware drawer today. still not sure who was responsible. any's first instinct was to threaten amanda. maybe we should be concerned.

champurado

she said something about it being good enough. i think it was the perfect fix for this cold snow-y day.