life gets unruly. the sun just keeps shining.

he smelled of earth and i breathed in deeply

its been a difficult and long process but i've finally come to see the beauty of spring.

on a brighter note

one reason i'd get married. kitchen appliances on the registry and endless hours to play with them. given that the husband is old fashioned and won't let me work. ha!

there you go again breathing, changing everything

my idea of God is not a divine idea. it has to be shattered time after time. He shatters it Himself. He is the great iconoclast. could we not almost say that this shattering is one of the marks of His presence? - cs lewis

staring at the pieces in front of me and i can't make sense of it. i feel lied to. cheated. i miss his voice, his hands. i wouldn't go back (there's no place far enough) but heaven knows i can't stay here.

peeking through windows

i was nearly overwhelmed with jealousy when i saw that look in his eyes. my heart is longing.

recuerda, alma mia, él es infinitamente capaz

hindsight

despite my awkward heavy heart, this was good.